Monday was tough for me and this time it was not cravings. My stomach is not dealing well with the deprivation and sudden binge day. Week One I had felt like I would be sick, but I woke up fine the next day. Week Two I went to bed with that too full feeling and woke up at 2am Monday morning completely sick to my stomach; it lasted until Tuesday. My best guess for my body’s freak out is that I have spent the last year learning moderation only to throw it out and switch to this extreme diet.
Despite my cry-baby whining I have decided to step up my game and add my exercise routine back into rotation. I have felt lazy and have had too much time on my hands to think in the past two weeks. I have noticed that I do feel better after a workout and as long as I have a motivator to keep me away from desserts afterwards I feel more focused on the weight loss.
I decided M,W, & F Pilates and Ab work. T, R, & S swimming and light stretching. Sunday would be my day of rest and junk food consumtion. This proposed schedule was a bit ambitious and I ended up doing two days of intense swimming and the rest of the days walking and light stretching. I started out strong and did full workouts Monday and Tuesday and was hoping to see an amazing weight loss, but the scale is stuck at -8lbs. This totally destroyed my willpower. My proposed workout schedule felt moot and I was not motivated at all.
I decided since I was already down in the dumps I would see if I could squeeze into my new swim suit ( purchased 1 size too small on purpose). It is brand new so it was a little tough to pull on, but once I pulled the straps over my shoulders something amazing happened… Fireworks started bursting in my periphory and trumpets blared. A choir of overly excited angels began to sing and I realized… It fit. Not only that, but oh my god… my stomach looked smaller.
I really wish I had measured myself before this craziness began. If I knew how many inches I lost maybe that could keep me going rather than this constant scale jumping. I mean, the diet promised me 20 lbs. I am trying to find a way to be healthier, but the only way of tracking my progress seems to be with these ideal numbers and BMI charts. Accoring to the BMI chart I am on the cusp of Obesity and just simply being overweight. In fact until I reach the mythical 125lbs range I am not at a healthy weight. In high school I weighed anywhere from 145 – 155 lbs and I was pretty darn skinny. I had no tummy or major body issues. As it is now, my legs and arms are getting pretty trim and it is only my midsection that is stressing me out. I am currently weighing in at 169.5lbs and have not really budged from that point in a while. I began this diet at 178lbs and while an impressive loss in just a month, I feel like the suffering is outweighing the benefits.
I need to start thinking about the future and what I am going to do after Week Four ends. I do not want my first week free from my self-obilagtion to be non-stop junk food and carbs. Maybe I can do M-F then moderation on Saturday and Sunday? Food for thought.